strengthen the bond of sth 强化……的纽带
enjoy life=live life up 享受生活
thingd started to change 世事难料
things strated to make sense事情开始变得有意义
pay with sb's life 用某人的生命付出代价
things had gone wrong before 以前也出过问题
make things better 让事情变得越来越好
it seemed that I was the only there for him 我似乎是他唯一的依靠
make the decision to tell 下定决心说出来
there was no use in hiding 躲藏没有用
want nothing to do with him 我不想和他有任何关系
meant everthing to me 对我来说意味着一切
for fear that =in case that防止
treated this way 用这样的方式对待
would have done sth与过去事实相反(虚拟语气)
don't know how to react (原因状语从句)
went doctor after doctor 一家一家去寻医
for his sake=because of 由于
attitude means everything 态度决定一切
keep things together 打理好一切
do me good=benefit sb 对某人有好处
keep everything in 对自己最想说的话
there was no more hope felt 再也没有什么希望了
maintain my positive outlook for him 保持我对他的积极态度
it wouldn't be long before +一般现在时
towards the end of May 朝着五月末
I am no longer that carefree teenager 我不再是无忧无虑的青少年了
in mind and spirit 在精神意愿中